Twelve months have passed with the focus being one hundred percent on my own personal objectives. And, the spaces this journey has kept... well, I never could've guessed it. I have been so many places. I have met so many people. I have experienced so many things. It is amazing. I can not help but be endlessly happy.
Thank you to everyone who has travelled with me. Some of you I have been fortunate enough to see. Others, we have corresponded randomly. All of you I think of periodically. Not a day passes without the thought of most of you. Usually it is short and sweet as, in a day, I do so many things. But I love all of you and thank you for being here with me.
Few of you know what I am actually doing. How I wonder what the rest of you think! Haha, it matters not. Really. But it's fun to ponder these things.
In truth, my relationship ended last January because I made a fundamental change in my beliefs. I decided that I wanted to do and give.. every thing. I was so happy working with the public, improving their health, motivating and befriending them easily. In reality, it was my dream, and I gave up everything to pursue it. Literally. And, I fell flat on my face. A total disgrace. Repeatedly. It's been a humbling process as I learn these lessons of patience, indeed.
So I am here, still, working. Far from where I started with absolutely nothing. I sit now in a well-furnished and pleasant room. Full of pinks and frills. The little girl's room I never had, I suppose. In the closet, hung up, my one bag of clothes. My blanket on the bed. Full of beauty and prose. So simple, this life I now lead. I have everything because I need nothing.
I am here for you. I am here because, a year ago, I decided to live my life as a public servant. I let go of my concept of partner, and family, and looked to a greater embrace : the world. And, that is my vision, to this very moment. It is a grand one, but, my loves.. It Flows.
It started as the vision of a non-profit that is still in the throws. But, it will start out slow and will include a lot more. Like a series of books, the first of which is almost done. The Story of Self, they will be called, and it's a three parter. Each one split into two sections, the first of which is an AutoBiographical Lesson. Followed by poetry that support the lessons learned.. It's come along nice. I plan to publish and market my self. Already know how. But, it's a long and costly process, so I'll be taking donations. ;) If you're interested in reading send me an email!
But, that's down the road... In the mean time I'm in Southern California, Encinitas, living with and caring for an Artist (painter) who is experiencing the onset of Alzheimer's. It's an interesting life that I manifested long ago. It's a 'disease' I've been meaning to observe and diagnose. After travelling as a Wellness Life Coach it's giving me an interesting perspective that I love. It will be an intriguing next few months.
I am aiming to change the world one person at a time. Restructure business and the local economy. My ultimate aim is to enter a city with a well organized and large team and do a complete overhaul, leaving it 100% sustainable with absolutely no waste. So many factors have to synchronize for this to take place!
But, I'm on it. I believe that the only way to harness true freedom is to live as ourselves. Totally and truly. And, to do this, we must be able to support ourselves. How many factors in our own lives do we control? Not many, if any, at all. Health being the first and fore most. So many of us lie victim to the toxins that are used in our food. That's plain and simple. Whether it pesticides or preservatives, it's killing us from the inside out. And, when you take fruits and vegetables in to account.. the items that should be the staple of every healthy diet... well, there would be shame, no doubt. And we suffer from it on every level whether we buy it or leave it on the shelf. From our hair to our skin, from our cough to our grins, every thing is affected from the food we put in our mouths. It is the fuel that sustains us, No Doubt. So, this is my center. I am working to create a business called "Edible Landscapes" and it will create just that. Both residentially and commercially with the aim to recreate the concept of the Garden of Eden - so we can finally, properly, feed ourselves. And, with this accessibility, as well as the use / implementation of all other agriculture necessities, things will really start changing quite quickly. Like my other business, where I plan to help those facing forclosure by converting their home into a sustainable hostel. And then, the nonprofit, which will back and push forward all those. There's a lot going on behind these closed doors... don't be surprised, yo.
I'm also planning on getting my Real Estate license, to fund it all. As these projects will take some lump sums of money. And, the beauty of it is, I've managed to find ways to support my self without having to make money. So I can turn around and invest it all. Truly, I chose to give everything up so I could, in return, give my all. It is a blessing to be a part of All.
Once all systems are in place I plan to market the books and the poetry. A core part of this whole concept is Artisanry. Of all types. Craftsmanship is the only way in a true local economy. Which is the direction we need to turn if we hope to change anything.
Every election I say the same thing. These candidates, they are puppets, really. To represent our ideals and play in a race. It's honorable but, to our hopes and our dreams, a disgrace. For only we can make them real. The purpose of government is to preserve our freedom as an individual, and that is all. They can not give us health. They can not determine our economy. They can not provide the wealth. That is up for us to find and define as we live as our selves. And, until we do that, the failure is Our Selves. "The fault, dear Brutus, lies not in our stars..."
So, I've changed that by commiting to a life of servitude. The generosity I receive and the deep relationships I experience as they are based in true love are beyond what I ever could have hoped for. I am blessed in every moment and am all ways grateful. I encourage you to try a life lived this way. It is beyond event full.
May you enjoy this leap year. In Druidic custom leap day, February 29th, was celebrated extravagently. They called it, "the day outside of time," and every member of society would live that day exhibiting a part of themselves that had never before been realized. A part that ran deep to their core but through life and circumstance had never had the chance to come out and be nurtured. It was a day of festivity, celebration and acceptance as each person experimented with who they could be in a different world.
This month I challenge you to consider who you might be if you were your self. And, on the 29th, who knows..
May be this next election we'll each elect our self.
Meagan Ishtar
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